Þrídrangaviti Lighthouse
(UHMM this >_< ALSO sounds bad but I'm taking care of myself, this is a written reminder to keep going! even if the prose and words are bad, I am happy and am continuing on!)
I wish I could do something for myself.
If I really was to go against the idea of my self constructed sin.
I would need to do something drastic.
I'm going to do something drastic.
But am I even capable?
I think I already am.
This just hurts so much, I need to do something drastic, but not insane. I'm being such a bitch, ugh.
In spite of everything.
Yes, yes I am more than capable.
I've forged a plan, one that I have to do.
Instead of focusing on the temporary, and not too entirely different plan, I should focus on the more concrete, easier to obtain goals which have longer lasting rewards.
It's a multi step process, but is as follows:
1: Sell everything I own.
Not for some stupid idea, but for money.
2: For the Fall, participate more in the Cybersecurity Club
This one has a certain roadblock, see the next one.
3: Obtain more of the Ideal
I have plans already.
4: Buy a ton of visual novels, like a ton, then do what you use to do best.
I can get back into that hobby with enough ease.
I want to attain certain goals for myself, I'd say for what, for whom, but no, this is for myself, it has to be in order to have meaning.
An image comes to mind of a lonely beach.
It's dark, night, dark, black, cool.
The moon can provide enough light here.
The stars are awake too.
I'm sitting by the water.........................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................
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